Tortured with the worst types of torture

Good evening my friends, I apologize. I write in English. I wanted to share with you the torment and pain after the trauma. My story started a very long time ago, a history of rape and torture. I was raped at the age of innocence and childhood by a relative at the age of 9, then at 13 and the suffering continued. In a lifetime, then I was kidnapped and tortured with the worst types of torture. I witnessed and heard how people died because of torture near me. Then I was liberated and I wish I had died with them.. The consequences of torture are severe, physical and mental disability, constant pain and inability to meet the simplest requirements of life. Adalah in this life. Now 6 years of treatment and rehabilitation to no avail..